I fell so hard I'm almost dying..

Yeah. So. It's totally official. I'm in love. Deeply, maddeningly, heartbreakingly, disgustingly adorably in love. Like.. We talk 10+ hours a day. I'm trying to remind us both about social lives and responsibilities, but honestly, we both just want to be in our pink bubble and ignore the world.

Oh Peepers. He is.. He is everything that's good and sweet and funny and sexy and adorable, all rolled into one perfect burrito with my name on it. I can honestly say I have never felt this strongly, this fast, and I have never been this unafraid for it to grow even more, and become the perfect relationship that I know it will be. Yes. Relationship. We're there. A month in, and we're there.

He called me girlfriend today. Casually, in the middle of conversation. So I had to ask. Am I? And he asked if I wanted to be. And the rest is history. And I'm so fucking giddy I could just float around like a pink little cloud. He, like me, is private when it comes to his family, cause they're nosy and asks questions. Yet today, at family dinner, he was so uncharacteristically cheerful his dad caught onto something going on, his mom instantly inquired as to whether it meant he was dating someone, and later he relented and told his dad he is indeed involved with someone. AND THAT'S ME, PEEPERS! IT'S ME, AND IM SO FUCKING EXCITED ABOUT IT!

He's seeing his brother tomorrow, and planning on telling him, too. I told a get friends last night, including a mutual friend who's known him way longer than me, and never have I seen such excitement! He was so freaking happy for us, it only made me even more giggly and giddy.

So, tonight, I went and did it. I made it facebook official. I'm in a relationship. I'm in a relationship with an amazing guy, that I've known for like.. 7 or 8 years, and while we were never here before, we're certainly here now.

And it may be wrong to compare, Peepers, but I'm serious. Feeling this way, makes any crush, infatuation, love or relationship I've been in before feel dusty, colorless and dull. This is a kaleidoscope of color and light and warmth, and I can't even contain it. It makes my face hurt and my heart feel the size of an elephant. Not like it's too small to feel it all, like it's just growing and growing to accommodate.

I've said I love you, a month in. I have never said those words so quickly, nor so truly. I don't care if it's fast. It's what I feel. And I am so fucking fortunate that he feels it too. All the shit we've both been through, all the hardship we've had.. Karma needed to balance it out, before we could meet on common grounds. Not while we were both in unhealthy relationships, though even then, we were drawn to each other. Not while we were both broken hearted and complete emotional messes. But now. Now that we're ready to be the best we can be, for and with each other. Now that we can see how every little choice and coincidence led us here. Now that all those stray thoughts and all the wondering over the years make sense. Cause we weren't meant to forget, we weren't meant to leave each other's lives. We were meant for each other.

Peepers. My stomach is doing backflips and telling me I found the one. The first one and the last one. The only one. The one I've been missing the entire time. And I feel all this a month in. 7 or 8 years.. And a month ;)