I'm moody for no reason today, and it's obviously hormones, if my cycle is anything to depend on. Okay, not really for no reason, I've analyzed it to death. I'm annoyed and bored and restless and.. really freaking horny. Due to a convo with M last night, discussing teenage celeb crushes, I ended up watching clips of some of my favorite moviescenes. Starting with Leo DiCaprio in Man in the Iron Mask, and working my way up through time to my more current crushes. So my sleep was kind of uneasy, to say the least.
I woke up from a really really pleasant (and frustrating) dream about Sherlock. A very teasing, on-the-edge-of-giving-in type dream. There was slow stalking across the room, not breaking eyecontact, breathtaking and highly arousing kissing up against a wall, hands stopping me from really reciprocating any attention, lips fleetingly brushing mine without closing the distance again, the heat of flushed skin, blood rushing in my ears.. And that fucking rumbly voice just vibrating through me, suggesting, teasing, beckoning.
Holy fucking Merlin. I have been completely unable to focus on anything all day. Been trying to read, but I keep getting images in my head from that damn dream. And it makes my gut clench and long. That rush through the chest and tug in your stomach, shooting sensation further down. Lust. And then the annoyance. I get it, sexual frustration, it's only natural, but coupled with the days around my ovulation (oh, get over yourself!) it's a bloody nuisance.
So, I'm trying to take care of things, but it's just not at all working. If anything, it has the opposite effect. Which is not a surprise, after 206 days of celibacy. My former record was 9 weeks. This is 29½, so far. But I'm still adamant. Not untill.. Well, not untill I feel like in that dream. Breathless. Needing. Unable to resist. And not because I'm rowdy, but because I'm attracted. Yearning, burning, ablaze.
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