Whining.

I'm having a major health downer. I started the day by being sick. I woke up from it, and had to rush myself to the bathroom. I've tried to eat things to settle my stomach, but nothing seems to be working. Once again, I find myself considering whether this is due to simple reflux, which I've had for years, or if it's more than that. I just have too many thing wrong with me for it to be explained by one disease. And I hate how hypochondriac that makes me sound. Mostly cause I have a feeling other people think I am. But they don't live in my body every day, and they don't know how much of a struggle simple things like food or movement can be for me.

Hell. I can't drink water if it's too cold. I can't drink milk in the morning. Fried food gives me heartburn. I can't drink more than a glass of juice, cause it hurts too much. Now, rye bread is starting to cause nausea. Garlic and chili is a challenge, fizzy drinks are cut to a minimum, cause it agitates the reflux too much. I don't know what to eat, anymore -.- Or drink. I basically feel like padding the inside of my throat and stomach with cotton, and starving myself. Reboot the system.

Oh yeah, and the heart thing was moved to Friday morning. I still get heart cramps. Not every day, but at least twice a week. My left arm feels odd. From wrist to elbow, it feels like I have growing pains. Like.. Kinda as if I've over-exhausted it, but more the irritating kind of pain, than a hurting kind. The worst thing is how I can't breathe during the cramps. I have to gasp air in, and it hurts like hell. And then I get all shaky afterwards.

I'm deadly tired of feeling uncomfortable in my own skin. I want it fixed. Now, the sick-feeling is back. So excuse me.